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The gift of stumbling blocks – reflection on daily readings for October 13

Wednesday, October 13th, 2010

Today’s readings
Galatians 5:18-25; Psalm 1:1-4,6; Luke 11:42-46

We all have them in our lives – people that push our hot buttons. They aggravate us, make us angry, even hurt us sometimes. When that hot button is pushed and the emotions surge to the surface, it’s very hard to resist giving into them and either being overcome with  negative thoughts or worse, acting out on those thoughts. It could begin as murmuring to oneself and build to talking behind that person’s back or a direct confrontation.

I have two people currently who do that to me. One is a family member and the other a colleague at work. Even when I step outside of myself and see myself reacting badly to them, I cannot stop the surge of emotion, and I sin. I confess the sin after the fact, right away sometimes if I am aware of what I have done, but I’m at a loss as to how to stop that tidal wave of emotion that leads to sin.

Today’s first reading from Galatians 5:18-25 states the following (verses 22-26):

Now those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified their flesh
with its passions and desires.
If we live in the Spirit, let us also follow the Spirit.

Living the Spirit, I’m finding, requires constant vigilance. Constant. Moment to moment. It’s impossible to do without calling on God’s grace all day long. This, most likely, is one of the main reasons why St. Paul urged us to pray constantly. That connection with God’s grace is meant to help me rise above such passions and circumvent them. It’s obvious to me that I will need to really pray a LOT during the day to avoid giving in my feelings.

And this is why these two people are a gift to me. They are the reminders I need to constantly seek God and His grace. I know they can cause me to stumble, so I must cling to God and remain Christlike in my love for them.

Live in the Spirit, following the Spirit . . . remain constantly close to God in order to be more like Him.

What healing requires (Luke 17:11-19)

Monday, October 11th, 2010

Yesterday’s Gospel reading told the story of ten lepers who called upon Jesus for a healing. All were healed, but only one realized he was truly healed and returned to give thanks to God. While the other nine were healed in body, the tenth was healed also in heart, mind and soul.

Leprosy was a terrible scourge, the AIDS of its time. Besides the physical toll it took, it also ravaged the inner life  like no other. Illnesses create emotional wounds because of the isolation and fear they cause. Despite the love and sympathy of family and friends, you still ultimately have to bear your illness alone. But an illness that is not ‘acceptable’ creates deeper wounds because of the shunning one receives as a result. Lepers were banished from all contact with family, friends and society. Because of the ease in which the disease was transmitted, and the physical ugliness that it created, people ran in horror from you if you were a leper. Who can forget those haunting scenes from the movie “Ben Hur,” where we find Ben Hur’s mother and sister in the leper colony, stripped of all hope. AIDS victims today often face the same treatment.

So for Jesus to even acknowledge lepers was radical. In many cases, He even touched them.

In the case of the ten, He surely meant to heal each totally of his wounds: heart, mind, body and soul. The body obviously was the easiest part to heal. The healing of the inner self requires a much deeper faith.

Perhaps this is why the tenth leper was able to come back and thank Jesus when the other nine could not. His faith was deep enough to accept a total healing.

That kind of faith requires an openness found in a childlike heart that has not been hardened by bitterness and pain, the kind of heart Jesus says we must have to find life in Him. When one has a heart like that, one sees plainly the blessings, and the healing, that come from the Lord.

I find that the more I am clinging to Jesus, moment to moment, as a child would cling to a parent, the more I can see Him, even down to the smallest blessing or the smallest sin that I commit. This is what it takes to ‘see’ a healing. It’s all too easy to forget about Jesus as He is not physically in plain view. But I have His Word to read, His Spirit living within me and His people around me, especially in His Church, and it’s up to me to claim these things each and every day.

“Remove from me the way of falsehood . . .” Reflection on daily readings for September 22

Wednesday, September 22nd, 2010

Here are today’s readings
Proverbs 30:5-9; Psalm 119:29,72,89,101,104,163; Luke 9:1-6

The scripture from Proverbs and the psalm from today’s daily readings washed over me like a wave. Its strong themes regarding deception and falsehood were a firm affirmation of something the Lord had shown me throughout this week: I had been exposed as a deceiver.

Who was I deceiving? Myself. How? Through pride.

My prayer life has been growing. I’ve enjoyed wonderful spiritual nourishment from a dear older friend who is an example of holiness to me. I’ve felt more connected with the Lord and with others. And I took pride in all that. That pride was deceiving me into thinking I was holy, in fact, holier than thou, if you know what I mean. Recently I was with a group of friends and found myself judging them. As the evening progressed, God was making it very clear to me that I needed to look more deeply at myself instead. Later that night, the examination of conscience was pretty intense.

I read the readings this morning and it reinforced the issue. It was obvious the Lord meant to teach me more. Just before I started writing this post, I talked to my brother on the phone and realized I had been judging him too about something without even bothering to consider all the facts!

What was scary to me was how easily I was deceived. It happened in such a subtle way that it took a while to see it. It reminded me how skillful satan is at deception (and yes, I mean to make the “s” in satan lower case), and how easily he can take something holy and pervert it.

Jesus was so right – you have to be constantly on alert, awake and ready. I need Jesus beside me every minute because satan never stops trying to separate us by my sin. The fortunate thing is Jesus’ love never ends. He will always offer His forgiveness and grace if I just ask for it.

I echo the thoughts of the writer of this verse from Proverbs:

. . . I ask of you,
deny them not to me before I die:
Put falsehood and lying far from me . . .
Proverbs 30:8

Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy on me, a sinner . . .