Sometimes I hurt inside thinking of all the people I know whose hearts have hardened like concrete against the Lord. They are good people, they just don’t want to know Him. I read this canticle from Isaiah and think of them:
Canticle — Isaiah 2:2-5
The mountain of the Lord’s dwelling towers above every mountain
All peoples shall come and worship in your presence (Revelation 15:4).
In days to come,
the mountain of the Lord’s house
shall be established as the highest mountain
and raised above the hills.
All nations shall stream toward it;
many peoples shall come and say:
“Come, let us climb the Lord’s mountain,
to the house of the God of Jacob,
that he may instruct us in his ways,
and we may walk in his paths.”
For from Zion shall go forth instruction,
and the word of the Lord from Jerusalem.
He shall judge between the nations,
and impose terms on many peoples.
They shall beat their swords into plowshares
and their spears into pruning hooks;
one nation shall not raise the sword against another,
nor shall they train for war again.
O house of Jacob, come,
let us walk in the light of the Lord!
But as I read through the morning prayers today I could feel the Lord saying to me that if my concern for those members of my family and my friends turns to anxiety and disturbs my peace, that this is not of Him. It shows that I don’t trust in His ultimate plan. It is not my job to save anyone, that is for Jesus to do! I have no power on my own.
I love to plan things, to fix things. My kids especially say that I never just listen, that I always have to offer advice. It’s a compulsive thing, wanting to fix everything.
But God wants me to lay aside that compulsion. Yes, I can fix some things, but I can’t fix everything. Why not leave it to the One who can?
The best thing I can do to help those who don’t know Him is to focus squarely on Him. This is why the Two Great Commandments start with “You shall the love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, with all your mind and with all your strength.” I must let HIM do the work. My role is to follow the Lord as closely as I can and let His light shine through me. That light will attract those I love, not anything I can do. I can’t make that light shine through my actions. Only surrendering fully to the Lord will cause that light to shine.
My heart will still burn for my loved ones to know Him, but I must rest in the Lord, immerse myself in Him, and let Him shine His light through me. I must step aside.